It's not my nature to post on web any form of writing to express how I feel. Actually this is my first time to post here on blogger. Most of the time its my Sicily (Nicky) who post on this blog account although we both own this blog account. I may not be as smart like Sicily but my words are as important as his. Honestly, I hate sharing my feelings and broadcasting it here online but somehow I think its about time for me to express it. I am the biggest fan and supporter of Sicily. I do appreciate everything that he does and all that he is but somehow I don't always agree with him. Just for example; his blog ROMEO AND ROMEO is very subjective. And I do understand it, because blogs are one of those ways to express how we feel.
I did had a hard time to get a tittle of my ever first blog. There were lots of possible tittle I can come up with but I did choose FOREVER??? with 3 question marks. I chose it, because every time problems and challenges comes our way I always wonder we can make it forever.
Last night before I went to my room I sent him an sms. It consist of bad words and fowl messages. Honestly I felt really bad for doing it, I hope Sicily will realized that it's not his mother and his best friends mother am referring to. I've sent that message for him to feel my anger.
My heart is broken cause I felt the man of my life is not giving the respect I deserve, the care that I earn, the equality he promised, and the Love I expect. Sad that I felt our relationship is not like before hand in hand its more like a one man show. He directs I obey, he reacts I listen and he controls I give in. Little by little he's getting selfish. Little by little he's going to a different path. Little by little he's loosing my faith.
It's painful to hear that my love doesn't believe me anymore . He's more fond of other people. He even tell to my face that I lack the drive to succeed unlike his friends and folks. Funny I never doubted his talents and skills and I am always the optimistic who advices him of his bright future. I am not a loser but he treats me and constantly make me feel I am.
With all of the things going on to both of us right now, is there anyone who could tell me how can we go on forever? Please help me!
I did had a hard time to get a tittle of my ever first blog. There were lots of possible tittle I can come up with but I did choose FOREVER??? with 3 question marks. I chose it, because every time problems and challenges comes our way I always wonder we can make it forever.
Last night before I went to my room I sent him an sms. It consist of bad words and fowl messages. Honestly I felt really bad for doing it, I hope Sicily will realized that it's not his mother and his best friends mother am referring to. I've sent that message for him to feel my anger.
My heart is broken cause I felt the man of my life is not giving the respect I deserve, the care that I earn, the equality he promised, and the Love I expect. Sad that I felt our relationship is not like before hand in hand its more like a one man show. He directs I obey, he reacts I listen and he controls I give in. Little by little he's getting selfish. Little by little he's going to a different path. Little by little he's loosing my faith.
It's painful to hear that my love doesn't believe me anymore . He's more fond of other people. He even tell to my face that I lack the drive to succeed unlike his friends and folks. Funny I never doubted his talents and skills and I am always the optimistic who advices him of his bright future. I am not a loser but he treats me and constantly make me feel I am.
With all of the things going on to both of us right now, is there anyone who could tell me how can we go on forever? Please help me!
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